The ongoing issues with a girls weight..

So, as I was in Tesco's searching for what to eat for my lunch, I got asked a question that could be perceived as quite rude.

"How much do you weigh?"

Now, of course, I didn't answer. Why is it any of their business how much I weigh? The weight of a person shouldn't define who they are, surely? But it does. Weight is one of the main issues in the media today. And I would love to say that it doesn't affect me, but I would be lying. Of course it affects me, I think about my weight everyday. Now to everybody out there I may be classed as 'thin', but to me, I'm not thin enough. If I could just stop eating, God I love it, but the truth is I love food, I find it a real struggle to turn down cake or chocolate or ice cream or anything I particularly like. I go through everyday thinking about what I should or shouldn't eat, how it'll affect my body, and regretting eating so much at the end of the night. It's on my mind constantly. Its an obsession.

We will never be truly happy with ourselves. There will always be something that we want to change about ourselves, and it's not a question of solving that, it's a question of coping with it. And that's my challenge right now, coping with my insecurities and learning to love them.

Now excuse me whilst I finish off my tub of Ben and Jerry's Phish Food.. because I'll never learn.