Hello, I'm Charlotte... and yes, I am the newbie..

Starting a new job is most probably one of the most nerve racking experience's I could go through... Up there with bungee jumping, or... having to hold a tarantula (As you can tell I struggled to find nerve racking experiences) And so, when I started my new job at Heathrow Terminal 4, 3 weeks ago, I can't say I was the most relaxed I've ever been.

I just despise being the newbie. Having people stare at you, struggling to join in on the conversation because you have no idea what they're talking about, having to introduce yourself 50 million times! And just not knowing the general protocol.

Well, you'll be pleased to know I survived, maybe with a few bumps and scrapes along the way, but I am now in my 3rd week and am enjoying it. I still hate that work feeling, but have kind of realized that everyone has that, and they just have to deal with it, because they need to pay the bills! I still have to introduce myself, but to not as many people. I still struggle to join in on the conversations, but I'm now comfortable remaining silent.

And I have met some wonderful people (and some terribly rude people who I can't seem to get my head around) So maybe this summer (not so) break will be okay this year, and I know it'll all be worth it when I get that fat pay cheque in the post!

The Tale of my Macbook.

So, I recently suffered a loss that, I'm sure you'd understand, was terribly devastating and made me contemplate what I actually do in life during my free time... This tragedy was the loss of my Macbook. Yes, feel free to cry, gasp or shout "No!" because it was like a part of me went missing.

So, as other blogger's would understand, what the hell do you do without your laptop?!

Well, thankfully I have a 800 page book to read in the next 2 weeks, so I cracked on with that! And can I just say a thank you to Hayley Jane Goodman for buying Grand Theft Auto, San Andreas... that also has been my antidote to boredom. And it did take me back to my childhood.. yes I played it when I was under 18... blame my brother.

So this occupied me for the worst 5 days of my life, until today.. when I got my lovely Macbook back!! YAY!! .... Just shows you how much we rely on technology nowadays, doesn't it?

The only bad thing is now I don't have an excuse for not doing my uni work!

Keeping up Appearances.

So, I do wonder sometimes why we girls go through so much just to look good.
I mean, take today for instance, I woke up, had a shower, shaved, exfoliated and washed my hair... I then moisturized all over, dried and straightened my hair. Now comes the make up, and then add the nail polish, and I think I'm ready. I mean, wow, that's an hour and half of my day gone. And what am I doing today? Sitting inside.

Why do we care so much about our appearance?
Well, I blame the media, showing us these pictures of super skinny, tanned and just all over amazing goddesses of celebrities. Who, of course, have people who dress them, hair stylists, personal trainers.. and basically who don't have to lift up a finger.

And I also blame Summer... Don't get me wrong.. I love summer!!! But now the suns out I actually have to start caring about what my legs look like! Damn.

So I can complain all I want about how the media shows a bad representation of women, how we should just be happy as we are and not care what people think... but I still fall sucker to vanity, and go through everything to try and look like the women in the glossy magazines... and one day I will, if it's the last thing I do!

Oh vanity, how you plague the world! :)

It's been a while.

Don't get me wrong, I do love writing on here. It's just I feel like I have nothing to say to the world. Tad sad, I know. Hmm, my life recently...

Well I'm home for Easter. Go back to uni in 6 days. Not looking forward to it, particularly as I have a lot of work that needs to be in, and haven't put much effort into starting it yet. Am looking forward to seeing everyone I've missed though. I don't know what it's going to be like in the Summer, I'm going to miss everyone too much.

Since applying to Heathrow Airport, I now have a job over the summer, which is excellent, as I need all the money I can get. And it's not in crappy retail, even bigger bonus. However, it does mean I have to leave university early as I start in June. Doesn't really matter as all the assignments will be finished, just sucks leaving before everyone else.

I now have my nose and tragus pierced. Hurt like hell, but I like. Now have to keep cleaning them, as I don't really fancy getting an infection, especially on my face.

I have rediscovered Twitter, which I am now addicted too. Add me if you wish. lottiemac1990

And oh, yes. Shopping in Oxford Street on Wed. Ahh, the highlight of my holidays.

Much love. X

Oh, and the weather forecast during the past few days has been sun, sun, sun, which puts a great big smile on my face.

"Still, I think he's rather tasty!!"

Just been checking up on subliminal messages in Disney movies.
Gosh, my childhood was a sham. Can't one thing in life just be 100% innocent?
What is this world coming too!

On a lighter note... is it wrong to be in love with a cartoon?

Oh, Aladdin!

Hayley Goodman

Okay, so after suffering from a bout of writers block, my housemate and friend Hayley Goodman has given me an idea of what to write about.... herself.

We met on that fine day of September 13th 2009, and since then have gotten closer and closer, in a friends only way, of course (although she did once declare her love for me if she had been a lesbian... but that's another story) We share the same interests in novels, music, movies, television shows and vampires... a certain Eric to be precise ;) And yes, she can talk for England.. but to be honest, that is pretty impressive!

(May I add, just as I am writing, this Hayley just broke the silence with a clearly defined burp, you gotta love her!)

She has her quirks, and can always make me laugh with her dry sense of humour. I can just sit and listen to her all day long quoting every season of Family Guy.... how can you do that?!?! And I must say, I had a very good night with her last night, watching Disney movies and sniffing chocolate.. who knew it could get you high!

So as she is munching away on her domino's pizza and telling herself how good it is, I just want to let you know, Hayley Goodman is one of a kind, and I love her very much!

Me and Hayley staring in Barbie's The Princess and the Pauper... coming to a cinema near you.

Happy Mothers Day

It's times like these I especially miss being at home.

My mother is one of a kind. She's always looked after me, been there for me, never judge me or my decisions. Accepted me for who I am. She is my best friend... and an amazing cook, which always helps.
She'd go out of her way to help me with absolutely anything. She deserves the best because she is the best. And I love her very much.


Am kind of bored of Weston at the moment, I'm going out too much, spending too much. I want to be at home with my family. With my dogs. It truly is the little things in life that make it great.

Anyways, enough of the soppy post.
Until next time.

You know,

Having someone constantly point out you're bad points, and what you're doing wrong, really isn't a confidence booster..

Let me just crawl down into this hole in the ground and stay there for eternity, yeah?

Reckless.

Really in the mood to just go out, get pissed and not care about anything.
Now I know what you're all thinking... that Charlotte McCormack could never do such a think as that.
Well... this is a new, reckless Charlotte. Whose going to enjoy being a student. And not get depressed over stupid little things. Because being a student is about having fun, isn't it? Something a handful of people seemed to have forgotten.
So I'm going to have my fun.
Watch this space.

Sex Ed.

Have just realized how many people from my secondary school are now pregnant / have a baby.... Is it that hard to use a condom? I mean, really.

Alcohol + Lovely people = Good times

So the night consisted of...

Going for an Indian (meal) with Alice!
Putting down a certain someones number in the comment book... ;-)
Alice pulling the waiter.. haha
Having lots of Karaoke sessions in Yate's!
Getting drunk, drunk and more drunk!
Going to Tesco to get some more alcohol, but not without having a little photo on the train...lol!
Then off we pop to the house party at North Street, where lots of funny happenings occurred which I can laugh about because none of them happened to me!

Oh we <3 alcohol!

Question time.

It amazes me how some people have the ability to be THAT selfish.
I mean, come on, can you really not cope without some sort of attention?
Do you really think we haven't got our own problems to think about?
Do you just want to follow the crowd?
If yes, surely there's some other.. healthier way of doing it?

And why is this blog filled with unanswered questions? The bane of my life!

Oh I'm so quick.

If I were to hit you right now, what would you say?



...Bastard?

Pet hates.

1) Rude shop assistants. Now I can totally relate... suffering in the world of retail for 5 years of my life... however, it is your job. I personally always take pride in whatever I'm doing, and I always aim to achieve the best. Now, fair enough if that isn't your outlook on life, but ALWAYS use your p's and q's when serving a customer. The customer doesn't care if you're having a bad day, your boyfriend's just broken up with you, or you've just spent all you're money and don't get paid for 2 weeks. They want a pleasant shopping trip, and a shop assistant to wish them a good day after they've spent too much on a dress and heels.

2) Bad mouthed school children. Because that is what you are.. a child. Using disgusting foul language will not make you become of age, or look any "cooler" in front of your chums. You make me embarrassed to be of this generation. And do not talk about sex when you haven't even experienced it yet.

3) People on the phone when you're trying to have a conversation. Now, I admit, I can become criminal to this as I have a boyfriend who enjoys texting through out the day.. even though I frequently run out of things to say. However, when I'm sitting down for a meal with a friend, I make sure I tell him not to disturb me. It is rude. And not nice for the other person. Please stop.

4) "I hate my life" status' on facebook. Yes, you may currently be in a bad mood at that present moment in time. However, we do not want to know how much you hate your life, we are all dealing with our own problems, which are exactly the same as yours. And personally I think it's time for those people to reflect on the much more terrible problems in the world, particularly of 3rd world countries, where there is poverty, HIV, gangs who take pleasure in raping women, weather disasters, which fortunately the UK does not suffer from. And you think your life is bad? Really?

Damn you beef chow mien, how you tease me.

Okay, so, Valentine's Day turned out better than I thought it would be...

Except I just ate my weight in Chinese take out.

Curly

There's a reason why I never have liked to changed anything drastically with my appearance... Since when does,

"What have you done with your hair?!"

constitute as a compliment. Thrice I heard this comment yesterday... from three different people! I don't like a fuss, I've never been one to celebrate a birthday etc. So do me a favour, if you have to comment on something about my appearance.. make sure it's a compliment, if not, then please overlook it. For the sake of my embarrassment.

Valentine's Day.

Now, don't get me wrong, I do like a bit of romance. I love being in a relationship and everything that comes with it. But I have to admit, I absolutely dislike the day that is Valentine's Day.

Not that I don't celebrate it, I do, mainly for my boy, because he likes it. But I don't see why you should make an effort with your partner just one day of the year, you should do it everyday. To be honest the day was just made by the government to get more money off of us by making us buy cards and chocolates and anything else to do with 'love'. But who actually enjoys the day?

Number one, it creates this whole load of pressure that you have to fulfil, finding a perfect present for your partner (Lets be honest, he'll probably never even look at the teddy bear you got him ever again..) And just by making that day 'special', although most couple's probably have at least one arguement during the day! Number two, the women have a great deal of pressure by making themselves look good, just to add to the romance in the evening. You know, buying expensive underwear, making sure their legs are hair-free etc. And number three, it makes single people even more depressed at the fact that they are single by highlighting it for the whole world to see! Why would you do that? That's just cruel!

Not that I think there's anything wrong in being single, I think you should all enjoy it whilst you can! But it seems to me, the majority of single people I know do not want to be single.

And so, to conclude.. I think we should all rebel against the government and not celebrate the commercial holiday. Who's with me?!

Oh.

And after recently watching 500 Days of Summer, I currently want to be Zooey Deschanel.

Because we all love frozen yogurt.

Update.

So I thought I'd give you an update on my life so far, considering I haven't gone into detail in a while..

Still at University.. enjoying it more than I did, however, not seeing any improvements..

House is quite bad at the present moment in time, if I'm perfectly honest everyone seems depressed. It's like this plague has come into the house and is infecting us all one by one. I'm doing my best not to be "infected", trying to remain happy, because what's the point in life if not to enjoy it? Slightly looking forward to accommodation next year, having viewed a possibility. Although will miss the housemates I won't be living with next year, particularly a certain next door neighbour.

Finished the amazing series of Harry Potter books.. there isn't a word in the dictionary which can explain how amazing it truly was.. I pray you all will experience it some day. Now diving my nose into Jane Eyre, after having a recent and shameful revolution that I haven't ever read a classic romance novel.... I apologise.

Me and the Boy are still going strong =] infact at this moment in time he is currently driving the 2 hour monotonous drive to sunny ol' Weston, just to see lil ol' me! I happen to be a very lucky girl.

Going home in a week, cannot wait to see the fam and dogs! How they brighten up my day! Oh, and I am venturing off to sunny California in August, because my parents spoil me and my brother rotten. Actually cannot wait! America.. how I've missed you!

So that concludes my current affairs, thank you for reading!

I enjoy times like these..

The financial problems a Uni student faces

Oh clothes in shop, why tease me so?
If I had the money, I'd buy you, although..
Why stop there when I can have so much more?
But that'd be just greedy, and life would be a bore!

Or would it?

DUN DUN DURRRRRRRR


Don't you just love my inability to write poetry?

Why hello out there!

A little shout out to the people on my course who read this... I was very much disillusioned when I thought that no one would even encounter my blog page!

But thank you very much for taking your time to pour over my thoughts.. I'm very much privileged to be your task of procrastination whilst you should be writing your prompt books! =]

Love you all!

Cough, sneeze.

ILL advised. ILL albright. ILL at ease. ILL being. ILL boding. ILL bred. ILL conceived. ILL conditioned. ILL considered. ILL defined. ILL disguised. ILL disposed. ILL ease. ILL egal. ILL equipped. ILL fame. ILL fated. ILL favoured. ILL feeling. ILL fitted. ILL fitting. ILL ....


Do you get the picture?

Complications.

Everything's falling apart around me. When did life get so complicated?

I'm trying to be positive, trying to be there for everyone whose going through this crap, but there's only a certain amount I can hold on my shoulders before collapsing myself. I know you should be there for your friends, but at the end of the day, shouldn't you be your number 1 priority?

Not that I have anything to complain about, and I'm not complaining, I just don't know when to draw the line and finally say, that's enough.

You just have to get through one day at a time, I suppose, because you never know what that day will bring. I certainly didn't predict this, I don't think anyone did.

Gosh, life is a roller-coaster.. they say that it's a journey of self discovery, I don't know about you, but I'm certainly discovering more than just my self right now.

Who am I?

My confidence has had a serious knock during the last couple of days.
Am I a bad person?
I feel like I have to tiptoe around life now, in case I upset or hurt someone accidentally.

Wow, my insecurities have just increased.

Hmm.. I wonder.

Been back at University for one day and already thinking of different career choices.
Got a grade back for an essay I did before Christmas, which I worked really hard on, and my grade wasn't as good as I was hoping... Kind of dampened my spirits...
I want to know what I could have done to improve it.
A year out seems to have seriously affected my essay writing skills.

Maybe I should scrap this course and follow the footsteps of Belle de Jour... she seems to be doing well financially.